Coming Out of Darkness

by Tiffany Rae
(Wisconsin, USA)

At the age of 24, I found myself having to start all over again with my life: I lost a husband, and I lost one baby to a miscarriage and another to Shaken Baby Syndrome by her father. I didn't know where to turn or who to turn too. Instead of looking to Jesus to fill in that void, I turned to drugs, alcohol, men, and sex. I didn't care anymore; I thought my life was over and there was no point in trying to go to God for help because obviously he was not helping me. Then I went to a women's bible study at my church and I realized that God does love me and cares about me and wants me to be happy, but it has to be on His terms. I have come to realize that I am precious to Him and He loves me more than any man ever could. I have made it through the forest, I have came out of darkness and into the light. Now, I attend bible studies 3-4 times a week, I sing in the church choir and I attend church on a weekly basis. That first night of women's bible study I finally got a chance to open up about how lonely I felt and how out of place I felt in this world, but I met other women who were in my place not to long ago either. After that night, I gave up the men, the alcohol, the drugs and the sexual desires and I let myself feel Jesus' embrace. I refused Him for so long and now that I have embraced Him, I feel like a new woman. I only hope that anyone who reads this story will see that there is light at the end of the tunnel and it is the greatest love you will ever feel in your life.

God Bless You All